Waiting

Waiting for payments I made to show up so that the credit card debt drops a bit further. Waiting for next month for another paycheck to knock down the debt further. Waiting for months and a year to pass to get out of this frigging mess.

But what am I doing while I am waiting? Waiting is dying. I’ve got a life to live — and it has a termination date. I need to keep living.

So I’ve been thinking about how to think and feel while I am going through this process, how to keep focused without losing my life.

At this moment I’m thinking that the way to do this is to meditate and focus on living minimally, taking pleasure in life that does not need lots of stuff.

Perhaps the underlying problem is not being able to live with what is but always wanting something else, thinking I need something else.

So, let’s meditate on this: I already have everything I need. I am, every day that I live well within my means, losing debt and creating wealth.

Breathe. It’s going to be fine. It is fine.